Me and My Dreams
11. August 2014
whenever I see young people achieve something proud-able on the news,
sometimes, I wonder, can I become one of them if only my parents trust me enough to pursue my dream?
well, I have my passion in art. music and dance.
i can do several traditional dance since i was 12, but my mom decided entering dance club is no use for my future.
i asked my parent if i could take music class when I was 16, again they say it is worthless.
I am not saying i can be some pro if I join dance club or take music lesson
but at least, i wouldn’t be this boring.
who knows I could be one of this dance club who go abroad?
who knows I could join a cool band and win many festival?
I would never know, because my parent wont let me try.
maybe, if I try a bit harder, I can join some youth exchange or something
but then, I realize, I lose my hope and passion.
my parent is lack of appreciation, i could never be their pride.
I wont fully blame my parent to make me become this lazy-ass, passion-less, unmotivated person.
I dont have that ambitious. I live in my on real world.
I dont expect to marry a diplomat, or high class guy.
i lose my hope to follow my passion.
so yeah, here I am, struggling to help my boy achieving his dream.
at least, I know how it feels to be proud of myself for I’ve done.
at least, now, i have my new dream that i know still possible;
to be a full time mother, part time fashion entrepreneur, part time teacher (depends).
well, que sera sera. I am doing my best as I can to achieve my happiness.